Jourdane Says: An Introduction

Hello Everybody!

Let me introduce myself, my name is Jourdane and I love to blog about so many things! I love to talk about life, love, fashion, and art. Over a year ago this used to be my online journal for original and borrowed thoughts, thoughts that inspired me and helped me become the person I am today. Today It still would be an online journal but I added little things that I hope would also bring meaning and understanding to the readers of this blog.

I do not intend to have many followers, but I intend to impart knowledge on life and how to handle life on a rainy day. I dunno, call this an act of nobility or what not but I hope you read my posts with an open heart and an open mind that all things creative and lovely would flow right in. creative freedom is absolute of course.

If there is anything I can do for you, if you want to talk about things that have reminded you or things you want to talk about regarding my blog, please, by all means, write something. Share your thoughts. I would love to hear from you!

XOXO,

Jourdane

On emotions...

"The adolescents of my generation, greedy for life, forgot in body and soul about their hopes for the future until reality taught them that tomorrow was not what they had dreamed, and they discovered nostalgia."

— Gabriel García Márquez

On getting lost..

"Sometimes you need to be lost to find yourself again..."

I am missing someone today

"I miss him more than you could ever imagine. I miss him with every fiber of my being..."

Far Longer Than Forever

If I could break this spell
I'd run to him today
And somehow I know he's on his way to me
Derek, you and I were meant to be

Far longer than forever
I'll hold you in my heart
It's almost like you're here w/ me
Although we're far apart

Far longer than forever
As constant as a star
I close my eyes and I am where you are

As sure as the dawn brings the sunrise
We've an unshakable bond

Destined to last for a lifetime and beyond

Far longer than forever ( far longer than forever)
I swear that I'll be true (I swear that I'll be true)
I've made an everlasting vowel to find a way to you
Far longer than forever
Like no love ever known
And w/ your love I'll never be alone

Far longer than forever
Much stronger than forever
And w/ your love i'll never be alone...

This is a song from the move "The Swan Princess" this is one of my favorite cartoon movies and this song is nostalgic, full of love and honest. It gives me hope that love still exists..

On Mistakes

Im not going to lie, it is very scary, it is very painful and it puts you in awkward positions. But if you are like me, scary does not even come close to what or how i am feeling when i make one.

When i incur mistakes i try to raise myself above water, but like water i am easily moved. There are just some things that we cannot overcome. In time maybe; Not even answerable by when.

I took my life to a cross-section and now that i am starting to know myself more, i took a pause on the sight i have seen and pushed me a step back in my path to self-discovery.

I have learned:
-that i make my own mistakes
-that there is always someone to blame and the person to take the greater blame is me
-that mistakes i have made are the fruits of what i so wrongly decided
-that these mistakes also are born from anger and or overly expressed emotions
-that i wallow on it and i regret it and
-then later on not regret it anymore
-that it is hard to comfort myself once i am convinced of my doings
-and that i am greatly affected by what is to come.
-and also pity myself more.

I thought i have everything figured out when i took that road to self discovery, but these revelation lead me to another part of myself, a shelf that is in need of fixing, a shelf that is in need of dusting, and shelf that is in need of stacking.

So what comes next?

application? how? i still have to learn the secret of the universe to answer this. Maybe then i'll have things figured out...

On moving away

"If only someone held my hand before i wandered far,

i would have had reason to come back..."

Memories Of Madison County

I received this gift from my sister for my birthday. At first when i looked at this hardbound book the first word i could ever think of was "Pink" so i told her:

"Oh geesh, thanks sis, it's so pink"

She just smiled at me warmly and told me:

"Just read the book, you can thank me later.."

Doh! As if that would EVER happen! Anyway, It wasn't long till boredom crept inside me and looking at this pink paperback i couldn't help but ask myself if this is book would be one of those cheap Daniel Steel reap offs. I was wrong. I just finished reading the book in one sitting, the moment i read the first few pages i was really enthralled to hear such heart. Reading Jana's story brought back a lot of memories to me and when her story went deeper so did my compassion for this book.

This book is about love, a different kind of love, for me it was partly sane, partly crazy, partly rational and partly irrational, partly stupid and partly wise; It's not 50 50 either. It's different. All these years, i was left to conclude that she was still inlove.

I searched for forums about the book and Jana but all my searches went down to none. what i saw were reviews from amazon.com and that a lot of them wasn't really pleased by the book because to them, it meant to stirring Waller's life.

I do not really see this book as a nuisance or an act or stubbornness but i took myself outside the box and i was left to conclude that stories like this, should, in one way or another be heard by the world, be shared by the world. For the world to know, for them to understand, for them to be educated, and for them to see that a different kind of love exists.. beyond pain, beyond martyrdom..

To Jana, wherever you are..

Love never Failethed