On Mistakes

Im not going to lie, it is very scary, it is very painful and it puts you in awkward positions. But if you are like me, scary does not even come close to what or how i am feeling when i make one.

When i incur mistakes i try to raise myself above water, but like water i am easily moved. There are just some things that we cannot overcome. In time maybe; Not even answerable by when.

I took my life to a cross-section and now that i am starting to know myself more, i took a pause on the sight i have seen and pushed me a step back in my path to self-discovery.

I have learned:
-that i make my own mistakes
-that there is always someone to blame and the person to take the greater blame is me
-that mistakes i have made are the fruits of what i so wrongly decided
-that these mistakes also are born from anger and or overly expressed emotions
-that i wallow on it and i regret it and
-then later on not regret it anymore
-that it is hard to comfort myself once i am convinced of my doings
-and that i am greatly affected by what is to come.
-and also pity myself more.

I thought i have everything figured out when i took that road to self discovery, but these revelation lead me to another part of myself, a shelf that is in need of fixing, a shelf that is in need of dusting, and shelf that is in need of stacking.

So what comes next?

application? how? i still have to learn the secret of the universe to answer this. Maybe then i'll have things figured out...