Far Longer Than Forever

If I could break this spell
I'd run to him today
And somehow I know he's on his way to me
Derek, you and I were meant to be

Far longer than forever
I'll hold you in my heart
It's almost like you're here w/ me
Although we're far apart

Far longer than forever
As constant as a star
I close my eyes and I am where you are

As sure as the dawn brings the sunrise
We've an unshakable bond

Destined to last for a lifetime and beyond

Far longer than forever ( far longer than forever)
I swear that I'll be true (I swear that I'll be true)
I've made an everlasting vowel to find a way to you
Far longer than forever
Like no love ever known
And w/ your love I'll never be alone

Far longer than forever
Much stronger than forever
And w/ your love i'll never be alone...

This is a song from the move "The Swan Princess" this is one of my favorite cartoon movies and this song is nostalgic, full of love and honest. It gives me hope that love still exists..

On Mistakes

Im not going to lie, it is very scary, it is very painful and it puts you in awkward positions. But if you are like me, scary does not even come close to what or how i am feeling when i make one.

When i incur mistakes i try to raise myself above water, but like water i am easily moved. There are just some things that we cannot overcome. In time maybe; Not even answerable by when.

I took my life to a cross-section and now that i am starting to know myself more, i took a pause on the sight i have seen and pushed me a step back in my path to self-discovery.

I have learned:
-that i make my own mistakes
-that there is always someone to blame and the person to take the greater blame is me
-that mistakes i have made are the fruits of what i so wrongly decided
-that these mistakes also are born from anger and or overly expressed emotions
-that i wallow on it and i regret it and
-then later on not regret it anymore
-that it is hard to comfort myself once i am convinced of my doings
-and that i am greatly affected by what is to come.
-and also pity myself more.

I thought i have everything figured out when i took that road to self discovery, but these revelation lead me to another part of myself, a shelf that is in need of fixing, a shelf that is in need of dusting, and shelf that is in need of stacking.

So what comes next?

application? how? i still have to learn the secret of the universe to answer this. Maybe then i'll have things figured out...